I’m in Costa Rica!! Where all my mermaid dreams are coming trueee, hehe.
When we first got to Costa Rica I was really struggling to find a way to pour out an overflow of Gods love on the people. I realized that doing that was an impossibility because I really didn’t believe that He loved me. I was out in the waves of Costa Rica seeing how stunning this country is but I didn’t actually believe that God could have actually created that just for my pleasure and enjoyment. I thought how could God love a women like me?
So my team leader told me about inner healings. Basically, an inner healing is a slew of questions that your leader asks you about what lies you have been believing about yourself and your relationship with God. Then you ask God to take you back to the deep root memory of why you feel that way. After that you ask God what He really feels about you. I walked into it terrified that God wouldn’t show up for me, and meet me where I was. Not only did He meet me where I was but He showed me how deep his love is for me. I laid everything out on the table for him and He showed me that no matter what I’ve done, said, or think nothing could erase His deep love for me. I walked away knowing the lies I was believing for so long were from the devil and that I no longer have to put up with them.
What I found through it all is that God wants ALL of me. He wants my mess, my questions, my qualities that I thought were unlovable. I learned that I do not need to be perfect, that there is no rule book for what a christian women should be. He just wants me to be exactly the way He created me to be which is SO MANY THINGS.
What I found was that God sees me as his treasure. One of the lies that I had been believing is that I was a mistake and not a gift. The biggest thing that God highlighted in my inner healing is that I am his treasure.
What I found is God wants to dance with me when I’m dancing to music. That I feel so close to God when I get to bust down to some Beyonce. He’s dancing right along with me and we are just laughing together like a Father and daughter.
I’m so excited for what the future holds for me and Gods plan for my dreams and desires. I am currently still fundraising and I am about a little over 4,000 away from my goal! I would love to continue doing what I am doing and seeing God work through me and around the world. I would greatly appreciate thoughts, donations, and most importantly prayer! So far this whole experience has been life changing and I’m slowly learning that God’s plan for me is better than I could ever ask think or imagine.
